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November 30th. Moms birthday. And the day I started breathing. [Nov. 30th, 2016|12:33 pm]
November 30th. My moms birthday.
And the day I started breathing.

In my baby book, you documented my birth and the years following it. 34 years ago today, I had only been born a few days earlier. I spent those days on a respirator. And on the 29th, you wrote that you got to see me up close for the first time. Then the next day, this day 34 years ago, you wrote "You went off the respirator + started breathing on your own today. My Birthday". You also wrote about this in the "notes" section in the back of the book, saying "Due on 1-15-83, arrived 11-24-82 almost 7 weeks early. Breathing completely on your own 11-30-82 (my Birthday)". So on your birthday, I started breathing on my own. It was my first birthday gift to you I guess, from unaware little baby me.

It's weird to think that I only knew you for 22 years. It seems like such a short time to know someone for. But in that time, I learned so much from you. Not just 'school' type learning, but also how to treat people. I learned caring, kindness and love.

I'd sometimes go with you to your nursing house calls. You took care of sick children and, in the last few years, children in hospice who didn't have long to live. I'd go with you and do things like help hook up the kids gaming systems that they really wanted to play but couldn't figure out. I could of been doing other things. I could have said no and sat home playing my own games or watching TV. Or I could have thought it was a waste of time, hooking up systems for kids who may not have much time left to play them anyway. But I didn't. It just felt like the right thing to do to help, no matter how long the happiness for that person lasted for.

It didn't matter if the happiness I gave someone lasted years or just a day. Even the littlest thing could make someone's day better, and that's what mattered. Being able to do something, helping to make their life or even just their day a bit better and happier just felt like the right thing to do. And I felt that way because I learned from you. I watched you.

Many photos were taken throughout the years and many memories made. And all throughout that time, I was learning from you. 22 years with you shaped me into who I am today. And I'm grateful for that.

Happy November 30th. Your Birthday.
The day I started breathing..

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As it gets closer toward that time of year, that marks that you're not here.. [Apr. 6th, 2013|01:13 pm]
As it slowly gets closer to the date of my moms passing, I'm reminded of the many things she taught me. One of the most important to me is caring about and loving others.

Whether it was friends or family, she was always there to lend a helping hand. She cared about others alot. And whether she meant to or not, those things she did became a part of who I am. She was a nurse that took care of little kids, so she was always there for them also.

One of my best memories that's stuck with me of that caring was from her and those kids. In the later years, she worked for hospice, so she would go to peoples homes to help take care of very sick kids. And sometimes I would go with her.

One of those times, this kid didn't have that long to live, but he really wanted to play some games he saw on tv. But he didn't have a game system to play them. So my mom bought him the system, and I went along with her to help set it up.

Seeing this little kids eyes light up as I set it up for him was the best feeling in the world. As my mom did her work, I sat and taught him how to work the system, played some games with him, etc. Just by doing that (him having someone hanging out with him, playing games, etc.), that probably meant the world to him as well. He was so excited, and kept thanking me.

It was a simple act. But seeing this kid that was very sick.. And doing something that made him light up like that just touched my heart and has always stuck with me.

And from tagging along with my mom and seeing those sick kids, it made me appreciate life more. Also from seeing the sick kids, as well as experiencing my moms passing, it made me appriciate people more. You never know what life may throw at someone, or when you may lose someone. So don't take them for granted. Sadly, her passing was the first real close death I experienced, so that lesson came to me a bit late. I never really let her know that she meant alot to me...

So, she taught me alot, both while alive and even in death. And even if she didn't mean to teach me.. Just her being the person she was rubbed off on me alot. And as it gets toward these months of the year that marks that she's not here.. Those memories and things I've learned come rushing into my mind even stronger. And I'm just thankful for all the things she taught me.. Whether it was through something she did, or an experience I had like with those sick kids.

Miss you, mom.


I wrote this the day she went missing:

And this, the next day:

And about a month later, while thinking about things:
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Grandma's birthday on the River [Nov. 19th, 2010|04:55 pm]
Last night we went to celebrate my Grandma's birthday at a
restaurant on the river in St. Augustine, FL.
The sun was setting right when we arrived.

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Halloween! [Nov. 1st, 2010|11:19 pm]
Halloween at club Eclipse.

I've also posted photos of trick-or-treating with Austin and her Nephews at:

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Blue backlight [Oct. 12th, 2010|01:25 pm]
Took some images today, with the help of a Halloween skull,
a rose and Austin's "Mad Hatter" hat she wore for Halloween a few years ago. =)

No editing done to images other then cropping. How it looks is how I shot it.

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New "Weird Encounters" book, including my photography [Sep. 22nd, 2010|12:23 pm]
Weird Encounters recently came out, which is the newest book in the "Weird" series.
This one is about tales of ghosts and the paranormal.
They used some of my photography in it.

I took this photo of the book when it arrived in the mail:

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Playstation Move gameplay and overview [Sep. 18th, 2010|07:31 pm]

Picked up the Playstation Move yesterday for our PS3. I received alot of questions
about it and the games, so I thought I'd make a video showing some of the games that
come with the bundle pack, and some of the gameplay of it. This was only my first
or 2nd time playing many of the games, so I sucked pretty bad. =)

Overall I like it though. I used to have a Wii sitting in the living room at my old
house, but it just didn't click with me well.. and I ended up never playing it too
much. I CAN see myself playing this alot more though. It's alot more accurate and
smooth, and just feels alot better. Plus the video camera adds some fun aspects
to many games where you can actually see yourself on the screen.

Sorry for the low quality camera recording!

Watch it at:
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My photography in Weird Encounters book [Sep. 18th, 2010|07:13 pm]
Just received the new Weird Encounters book of ghostly stories in the mail!
It has some of my photography in it from the
St. Augustine Lighthouse and Olustee Battlefield.

Go grab a copy at your local bookstore! =D

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Photo in USA Today [Jul. 14th, 2010|02:14 pm]

USA Today recently used my photo of downtown Jacksonville skyline & fountain in their article.

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Karaoke Tuesday @ Club Eclipse [May. 5th, 2010|08:30 pm]
Photos from last night,
Karaoke Tuesday @ Club Eclipse in Jacksonville, FL.

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